Gonna vent a little, hope you don't mind.

no. what happened. i know it’s not the best up in darwin but what happened to us. we used to talk so much and now it’s come to the “hey, how are you” conversations. i’m trying to look after your boyfriend but he hangs out with the girl you hate and i just don’t weant to be around him because he’s changed and he is silent when ever we are walking beside eachother. he talks to hamish but when it comes to me. i feel like iv’e done something wrong. i swear i havent but i must have.. fuck. i’m so confused and it all adds ontop of everything with the school work and driving and family. fuck.. i miss our chats. maybe when me and caleb…… you’ll start talking to me again. i dunno. i just miss talking to you and wish you could give me a chance to make you happy..

fuck you’re a funny bitch haha. i really am glad you and hamish met. like legit you make him the happiest thing ever and vice versa. i’m so glad you’re happy now. i really want to hear you sing though! hopefully you sing at this weeks showcase :3 yes you kinda stole my friend from me but i can’t do much about that and he still makes the effort to talk to me so it’s all good. i just really hope nothing happens between you 2. if it does. i’m gonna aget hurt and so will a lot of other people.

fuck i’m so confused with you. i wish you would just tell me things so i understood what was going on. somethings up and i can tell but i don’t want to ask because you’ll lie to me saying that everything’s fine. i like to hang around you but only you! everyone else i don’t like in that group besides tom. it frustrates me having to fake a smile through every recess or lunch. you say that you can’t hang out with hamish and elise cause it makes you depressed yeah and what it doesn’t make me sad. when i’m the fucking single one!. fuck man you just don’t realise whats right infront of you. you have it so good. you have a job, a girl, hapiness, rugby and a fucking slr. i would kill for an slr, a job and a girlfriend. you just.. fuck it. i give up on you.  i guess i’ll just we what happens…

you changed and it’s a good change. you talk to me even more than you used to now. i’m so happy that i can share everything with you. it still depresses me hanging out with you and elise but i really dont like hanging out in the other group so i’m stuck with you 2 aren’t i. that’s not a bad thing but i kinda wish things were how they used to be when you were with elise and caleb and brad would actually talk to me and muck around. i miss that.. now i’m back to faking a smile.. fuck.